Fluid Retention

So the past few days I have been having trouble with retaining fluid by the end of the day. I am taking 160mg of Lasix and 100 mg of Spirolactone a day. I am going to keep a close eye on my sodium intake to make sure I am within my limits. Dont know if that is the problem or if maybe I need to be increasing my Remodulin. This illness is a day by day thing. You never know what its going to be like the next day. Sometimes the next hour you have no idea. I know one thing I am tired of never really able to plan ahead of anything. It seems that when I do I have to cancel cause I am not feeling well. I guess that has just become the way my life is now. I know I shouldnt complain there are so many people out there that have it so much worse than I do. I am thankful for all God has brought me through. I know that God is going to take care of me. Sometime I would just like to be able to do what I want and not have to deal with being sick. I guess there is always something we all want that we cant have.

Been A While

It has been a long while since I have posted to this blog. My goal is to start posting again on a regular basis. Since I started my weight loss journey two years ago I am down 60 pounds!! I still have a long way to go yet. Some say 60 pounds in two years is a lot and others say that isnt much. I dont really care what others are thinking just that I am on the right path now. It is coming off slowly and that is what I want. I dont want to lose weight really fast and then put it back on. I have done that before and I dont want to do that anymore. I want this to be a success and having it come off slowly works best for me. I am trying to work on finding out the reasons for being overweight in the first place. Ive heard just stop eating so much and you will lose weight. Yes, this is coming from people who dont need to lose weight and they just dont get it. I have a 5 yr old grandson who on some days eats more than I do. It isnt all about what you are eating. There are a lot of other factors to figure into it to. The only person I can change is me. Not my husband or kids only me. That is what I am trying to do. Some days I just want to give up and say it just isnt worth it. I know that just isnt an option for me. I need to keep going first and foremost for myself and for my family too. There is so much I cant do not only because I am overweight but because of health problems too. I know losing weight can help with my health problems. I am proud of the weight loss I have had and I am going to keep going until I am successful. This is going to be a life long battle as most of us have that same battle.

Is Anyone Reading This????

I dont even know if anyone ever reads any of my post on my weight loss journey. If not that is okay. It is a place I can come and get my thoughts down. I have talked to myself before so if noone is reading this I am talking to myself again.

I have been a bit upset with the fluid retention that I have been having the past couple of weeks. Since I have been having that I dont think that I have been losing any weight. It is hard to tell with the fluid retention. Not sure how much fliud I am holding.

The fluid seems to be getting better. I have had a few bad days but I am trying so hard to stay on track. I am drinking more water and I know that it helps a lot. Yesterday I drank a lot of water and was running to the bathroom all day. lol. That is one way to get the fluid off. It can be from some of my medications and with my thyroid being out of wack.

Now that I am on medication for the thyroid I am hoping that I get the fluid off of me. I need to do more exercising. I have not been doing exercise as much as I should. I am limited on what I can do cause of my health problems.

It is a work in progress. I did not put this weight on overnight and its not going to come off overnight. I am counting my calories and that seems to be working better for me. I have tried so many different diets and none of them worked. So back to counting calories for me. How is anyone else doing and what are you doing to lose your weight?

Frustrated!!

That is all I can say today is that I am frustrated!!!! I am sick and tired of my weight going up and down and not really getting anywhere. This is why I fail so many times.

I am not giving up this time. I am swelling up again and I know that it is from a new medication that I am on. If I cant get the fluid off we may have to go off the medication. I really need this medication but I cant be swelling like this all the time.

It is discouraging getting on the scale and I have gained weight. Right now I know that it is from the fluid. I am working hard on getting all the fluid off of me. Some days it is just so very hard.

Weekly Weigh Ins

Today I did my weekly weigh in. I was nervous about it as it has been a difficult week for me. I always get nervous about my weigh ins. If I have not lost or gained I get very disappointed in myself and want to give up. If I have lost I am happy with myself.

I am down 2 pounds this week. I was very happy with that. I had a hard week. Each day was a choice to make. Some of those days I did not make the best of choices. There were other days that I made very good choices. It is a process that we go through.

Making a lifestyle change takes time and effort. It isnt something that can be changed overnight. I didnt put all this weight on overnight and it isnt going to come off overnight. I have to keep telling myself that.

We want a quick fix. We want to lose a large amount of weight in a short period of time. When this happens we put it back on and a few more pounds. I dont want that to happen this time. That has happened to me way to many times. I want this to be slow and a change in my lifestyle. That is the only way I am going to be successful. So far I am being successful.

The Beginning of My Journaling

Trying to lose weight is not an easy thing to do. I think it is one of the hardest things to do. Some people think it is as easy as just not putting food in your mouth. That could not be farther from the truth!

I have been on just about every diet out there! So many times I have failed! I can do good for a couple of weeks and see results and then I give up!! Why do I do this? I dont know why. I am trying to learn why I do this. Sometimes I think that I am not worth it and why should I even try.

I have to learn that I am worth it. I feel better when I am losing weight. I do feel good about myself when I see results. My goal is to not give up. That I am going to have bad days and I just have to pick myself up and go on to the next day.

I have a lot of weight to lose and I know that it is going to take a long time to lose it. I didnt put it on over night and its not going to come off overnight. I started back on April 16, 2009 with my weight loss journey. As of today I have lost 14 pounds. I have had some bad days but I just pick myself up and keep going.

It is going to take a long time and I am setting small goals for myself. I am not going to beat myself up if I dont meet one of my small goals. I know that there are many others out there that are going through the same battle. I would love to hear from you. Maybe we can help each other.