Is Anyone Reading This????

I dont even know if anyone ever reads any of my post on my weight loss journey. If not that is okay. It is a place I can come and get my thoughts down. I have talked to myself before so if noone is reading this I am talking to myself again.

I have been a bit upset with the fluid retention that I have been having the past couple of weeks. Since I have been having that I dont think that I have been losing any weight. It is hard to tell with the fluid retention. Not sure how much fliud I am holding.

The fluid seems to be getting better. I have had a few bad days but I am trying so hard to stay on track. I am drinking more water and I know that it helps a lot. Yesterday I drank a lot of water and was running to the bathroom all day. lol. That is one way to get the fluid off. It can be from some of my medications and with my thyroid being out of wack.

Now that I am on medication for the thyroid I am hoping that I get the fluid off of me. I need to do more exercising. I have not been doing exercise as much as I should. I am limited on what I can do cause of my health problems.

It is a work in progress. I did not put this weight on overnight and its not going to come off overnight. I am counting my calories and that seems to be working better for me. I have tried so many different diets and none of them worked. So back to counting calories for me. How is anyone else doing and what are you doing to lose your weight?

Frustrated!!

That is all I can say today is that I am frustrated!!!! I am sick and tired of my weight going up and down and not really getting anywhere. This is why I fail so many times.

I am not giving up this time. I am swelling up again and I know that it is from a new medication that I am on. If I cant get the fluid off we may have to go off the medication. I really need this medication but I cant be swelling like this all the time.

It is discouraging getting on the scale and I have gained weight. Right now I know that it is from the fluid. I am working hard on getting all the fluid off of me. Some days it is just so very hard.

Weekly Weigh Ins

Today I did my weekly weigh in. I was nervous about it as it has been a difficult week for me. I always get nervous about my weigh ins. If I have not lost or gained I get very disappointed in myself and want to give up. If I have lost I am happy with myself.

I am down 2 pounds this week. I was very happy with that. I had a hard week. Each day was a choice to make. Some of those days I did not make the best of choices. There were other days that I made very good choices. It is a process that we go through.

Making a lifestyle change takes time and effort. It isnt something that can be changed overnight. I didnt put all this weight on overnight and it isnt going to come off overnight. I have to keep telling myself that.

We want a quick fix. We want to lose a large amount of weight in a short period of time. When this happens we put it back on and a few more pounds. I dont want that to happen this time. That has happened to me way to many times. I want this to be slow and a change in my lifestyle. That is the only way I am going to be successful. So far I am being successful.

The Beginning of My Journaling

Trying to lose weight is not an easy thing to do. I think it is one of the hardest things to do. Some people think it is as easy as just not putting food in your mouth. That could not be farther from the truth!

I have been on just about every diet out there! So many times I have failed! I can do good for a couple of weeks and see results and then I give up!! Why do I do this? I dont know why. I am trying to learn why I do this. Sometimes I think that I am not worth it and why should I even try.

I have to learn that I am worth it. I feel better when I am losing weight. I do feel good about myself when I see results. My goal is to not give up. That I am going to have bad days and I just have to pick myself up and go on to the next day.

I have a lot of weight to lose and I know that it is going to take a long time to lose it. I didnt put it on over night and its not going to come off overnight. I started back on April 16, 2009 with my weight loss journey. As of today I have lost 14 pounds. I have had some bad days but I just pick myself up and keep going.

It is going to take a long time and I am setting small goals for myself. I am not going to beat myself up if I dont meet one of my small goals. I know that there are many others out there that are going through the same battle. I would love to hear from you. Maybe we can help each other.